I'm feeling suicidal over my body?

I hate myself so much for not looking like a ******* pornstar. For not having a completley flat stomach, tiny tiny waist, big bum and big boobs and for not having a massive arch in my back and being super flexible. I don't understand when girls go on about how the super skinny supermodels make them hate their... show more I hate myself so much for not looking like a ******* pornstar. For not having a completley flat stomach, tiny tiny waist, big bum and big boobs and for not having a massive arch in my back and being super flexible. I don't understand when girls go on about how the super skinny supermodels make them hate their bodies cos as far as I'm aware that isn't even what men want. They've all become obsessed with this pornstar/glamour model type body.

My boyfriend says I'm fine and I know he loves me but I know that deep down he still fantasises about women like this and compares what I look like bent over to these slutty perfected images of women he's seen. I can't afford surgery but I really want to but at the same time they say they want it to be real not fake. I'm a 5ft 6 Caucasian female how can I get my body like this. How can I get that super tiny waist, sexy back arch and the perfect booty.

I don't feel as if men really love is atall anymore, I mean they do love us but physically we just arent enough and never will be. I wana hurt myself over this and actually have visions in my head of hacking at parts of my body with a knife.

They also want a pu*sy that only has a hole and a clitoris because the natural pu*sy shape is classed as a fat one nowadays and it's a turn off, you know our thongs were made that certain triangle shape for a reason? basically we aren't allowed to have an outer Labia. My boyfriends never said it but I hate my pu*sy because I think it's too fat. I hate everything.
All I see on my Facebook newsfeed is men liking pictures off of pages of women with fake boobs and tiny waists and big bums.
And then commenting on there about how the shape of her pu*sy through her underwear is a turn off. They have to find something to criticise even if she's basically perfection.

How can I cope with this. Please don't just say confidence is the sexiest thing somebody can have please because that is such a lie, a woman with a perfect look who isn't super confident for whatever reason would get picked over the less perfect but confident one any day, cos Ive seen this happen. and it's easy for the hot girls to feel confident because they have nothing to not be confident about.

I literally wana kill myself at the sight of my own reflection. It's become an obsession it's just sexed up perfected women everywhere I look.
Update: How can I get a body like these. This is what men want.... show more How can I get a body like these.
This is what men want.




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