Sick of my disabled brother (Please read before judging, kind of long but I need help)?
I would appreciate it if you all read this before judging me, or calling me a 'selfish' or something like that.
I'm a female, 16 years old. My brother has just turned 15 and has downs syndrome.
For starters, he's extremely aggressive, I physically have to restrain him from beating the crap out of our mother whilst our father has been at work. This has made him turn on me a few times, giving me black eyes and such. He's currently seeing a psychologist.
Recently my mum and dad had another baby, a little girl. She's perfectly normal and healthy.
My brother even tries hurting her, she's only around 5 weeks old but he's done things such as attempted to throw her out of the window. (This is NOT a joke) He understands that she's a baby and that he shouldn't hurt her, because he's told us that he does, but he still does hurt her!
My father is the worst, he stick by my brothers side no matter what he does, his excuse is always "He doesn't understand.." or "He didn't do anything, leave him alone!" 9/10 times he has done something wrong.
My dad literally appears to hate me, if I even dare look at my brother in a funny way, or I say something 'mean' to him my dad starts an argument with me which usually ends in me crying or something.
On saturday my brother went on a break for two days with some people from a disability group.
This was fantastic, my mom, dad, the baby and I all went out and had a great time, just like a proper family. There was no arguments or anything, we just had a great time.
But when my brother came back tonight, the arguments all started up again and I'm sat alone in my bedroom yet again, he's taken attention away from me for 15 years and I'm starting to hate him for it!
What do I do?
I really feel like crap!
Thank you for taking the time to read (If you did)
and thanks for any answers in advance. :-)