We're in our 20s, in a very serious relationship, not living together, not having sex til marriage (culture & religion thing).
I was in an abusive relationship for over a year, when I was with my ex, my ex used to send me pictures of big boobied girls saying "I wish you were like them, but I still love you tho." Glad I broke up with him, but I'm left with the lowest self-esteem ever.
My current boyfriend is very loving, caring, just amazing. We are very open with each other. I have talked to him about my self-esteem and how I hate my very small boobs (lol), but he constantly reminds me saying "I have always preferred small boobs over big ones. Big boobs scare me. I love yours." I believed him.
Last night, I borrowed his phone to watch some porn (I often do this, he knows it too lol). Went to his history for the links, and I saw Google results for 'big boobs nude girls'. Aaand... I just feel... like I've been lied to all these time. I mean I know my self-esteem can only be dealt by myself, but... I don't know. I'm not mad, I just feel... sad?
I shouldn't bring this up to him, should I?
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